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July 20, 2015

Maternity Boyfriend Jeans


I've already hit the stage of this pregnancy that I need maternity pants! I thought I was carrying Liv low, but this baby takes low to a whole new level, and even my lowest of low-rise non-maternity jeans are already uncomfortable! One trick I've been using is simply not zipping or buttoning my normal jeans and throwing a belly band on top to keep it covered, which certainly does the job! But thankfully I kept most of my old maternity clothes and the first pair of jeans I pulled out were these boyfriend jeans (last seen here when I was a whopping 9 months with Liv)!


My daily outfit has pretty much been scrubs (even those I had to cave and buy the maternity version - so much more forgiving and they keep me covered up - I was tying the normal scrubs with a drawstring so low I really felt uncomfortable at work), but now and then we still make it out for a casual dinner or hanging out around town - here's a look from this weekend!


Outfit details: Top (c/o Lulu*s, similar here) // Jeans (Asos, old style, but almost exact at Asos here) // Flats (Tommy Hilfiger) // Bag (small boutique, similar here) // Watch (Daniel Wellington) // Sunglasses (Ray Ban, c/o SmartBuyGlasses)

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Hope you all have a great week!

July 14, 2015

Balancing work and home

Hi all! Today I'm coming in with a little check in and hopefully touching a bit on that ever-elusive concept of "balance!" Like I mentioned in my last post I'm working nights (one more week!) which actually means I get my weekends off (well, I'm off Friday and Saturday night) which is definitely a bonus in hospital medicine where we usually only get one day off at a time! This past weekend was the first weekend we spent at home instead of traveling - as nice as it was to visit the Cape and to see my family for the Fourth of July, coming back with just enough time to head back to work leaves home life feeling like chaos!

Liv had a little viral infection she came down with Friday evening so we decided to have a quiet weekend, but we also didn't want to feel like we let the weekend go to waste either! I think one of the keys for balancing a busy work schedule and little time off with a satisfying home life is making home as comfortable as possible, as simply as possible. If your home feels like an oasis, spending time there will be so much more pleasant! Now this is obviously not always possible, and I'm guilty of just hiding messes so I don't have to see them for a while so I can relax until I have more time to actually tackle the mess! One thing that I find really helps is doing small cleaning chores each day. Instead of saving a precious Sunday for deep cleaning everything and doing all the laundry, I spread it out into small little tasks throughout the week when I have time. I'll throw a load of laundry in on a random weekday when I get home from my shift, pop it in the dryer when I wake up, then fold it while Liv plays in bed - doesn't feel like the huge task it becomes when I save all the laundry to do at once (and hence doing 3 or 4 loads at a time, and never actually folding all the laundry, and then just throwing it all in a pile on the floor - please tell me I'm not the only one guilty of this)! Same thing with cleaning the tub for example - it really doesn't take long to do if you do it regularly - I'll literally scrub the tub after I give Liv a bath and she's playing with N and not have to think about it the rest of the week! Breaking everything up this way really makes cleaning feel more manageable and allows us more time on the weekend to really just spend together!


Friday I was able to to have a relaxing "spa" afternoon at home while Liv napped. I always sleep less on Friday during the day so that I can actually sleep during the night on Friday and quickly hop back into a normal schedule for the weekend - it means Friday's are pretty exhausting, but thankfully there isn't too much to do! Some of my tried and true favorites for pampering myself include these eye gels I've mentioned before - especially now that I'm working nights, and it's summer time, the cooling effect they have when they're on feels so good! I always want to leave them on for longer than the recommended 10 minutes! They help so much with under eye bags (the jury is still out about dark circles, but these notoriously just take so much longer to see any type of effect). My favorite bath soak is this lavender one by Ahava, paired with this lavender scrub my bath smells heavenly! In an attempt to save time and money I've cut down on gel manicures - an Essie polish paired with this Seche Vite top coat is the closest it gets to gel manicures (although I still prefer gel manicures for the shine and incredible durability - as much as I like having my nails look nice I don't actually like doing my nails)! And of course drinking plenty of water while in the tub! I'm weird and always drink more water through a cup with a straw - whatever works right!?





For the weekend I decided it was time we got our own little blow up pool for the backyard. Liv is a water baby, and I knew she'd love it, but I also knew that not feeling quite herself, she'd probably tire out earlier than usual (so packing up and leaving somewhere to spend a day in the water would not have been a good option)! I found this perfect little pool at Target on sale for $20 - I call it little because it only takes up a little corner of the backyard, but it definitely fits me and Liv (and N) comfortably! I also couldn't help myself and picked up this adorable polka dot tankini (that ties as a retro-looking halter, but I tied in the back to make it strapless) - its front ruching is perfect for my growing belly! Liv loves running around in her little fringe suit - she kept shaking it to make the fringes move! I marinated our steak and threw it in a ziploc bag in the fridge, tossed our sheets in the dryer, and we played in the pool until naptime! It was fun and relaxing and I still felt like I wasn't letting my house fall apart! 

Shop our backyard pool day necessities here! Make sure you don't forget the sunscreen!! 





I guess the point of this post (other than rambling on - and boy am I rambling -  about our weekend) is really to say that balancing work and home is easiest when you keep things simple. When you break chores up into small tasks throughout the week to maximize time spent together over the weekend. The same can be said for schoolwork (for those of you who aren't responsible for a home yet) - breaking it up throughout the week into manageable time efficient chunks will keep you from spending hours at the library all weekend! 

July 2, 2015

Starting Intern Year


Hi all! Coming in today/tonight with a little late night post because I'm still working nights and (getting ready to say what one should never speak out loud...) it has been a relatively quiet night for the first time since I started! And just like magic, *my pager just went off*... brb!

Ok thankfully it was a quick question! So far intern year has been awesome. I won't lie, there are days I already drag my butt getting ready for work because I'm not looking forward to leaving, but I really think that has more to do with the fact that it's 8:30pm by the time I leave and I'd rather be cuddled up with my babes on the couch! Once I'm here my energy revs up and I'm ready to take on the night! I plan on doing another day in the life type post soon to give you guys an idea of a typical shift as night float intern, so I won't get into the gory details now, instead I'll just touch a bit on the transition itself!

For one - I have awesome co-interns. I purposefully chose a hospital that was the closest commute from home (nothing beats a quick 10 minute drive home), but I've never worked or rotated here before so I wasn't quite sure what I was getting into when it came down to the house staff. Thankfully I couldn't have gotten a more fun and down-to-earth group of docs to celebrate and commiserate with - we had some great bonding during orientation and I know we will continue to grow closer as we rotate through together!


What I was most worried about? Liv of course. But having my MIL living with us (you can read more about that here) is really worth its weight in gold, and I never leave the house feeling guilty or worried about how she'll do - they absolutely adore each other. And with this night float schedule (roughly 9pm-7am), I actually get to see her first thing in the morning as she's waking up, then I lock myself in my room and sleep for a couple of hours (thank goodness for my eye mask and ear plugs - sleeping during the day is just not normal for me), and then get to hang out with her all late afternoon and evening - playing with her, getting dinner ready, and some days even squeezing a bath in all before I leave again around 8:30. It's been pretty sweet. The one thing that has been the most rough is spending time with N. He's on a normal day shift, so most days he's out of the house before I get in in the morning and sometimes isn't back until after I leave. But communicating throughout the day definitely helps big time, and the best part of night float of course, is that I work Sunday night-Thursday night, so I actually get my weekends off (for this rotation at least). And he does too. So weekends are our time and we make the most of them!

Ok, back to the hospital. As night float intern I'm basically covering for 6 different teams' patients - some days I can be lucky and it means only 25 patients, but most days it's been averaging around 45, sometimes even more. That means should anything come up with any one of those patients I get a page about it, whether a patient wants something to help her sleep or a patient has a change in mental status or new chest pain, really you name it and I'll get paged about it. I work with another resident (someone at least a year my senior), but they are responsible for dealing with the new admissions that come in, while I handle all the inpatients. They are certainly there as extra back up should I need it, but I'm the front line. Which was terrifying at first (and still is especially when I'm dealing with something new), but it's amazing how quickly you learn and figure out things. At this point in our training we're not expected to know much, but we are expected to know what we don't know and call for help when it's needed. Just two nights ago I had a patient who I had seen just an hour earlier now desatting to the low 80s, using her accessory muscles to breathe, and really not looking good (she was sweaty and really struggling). I started with basic quick fixes - bumping up her oxygen, switching to a nonrebreather, getting an ABG and stat portable chest x ray (and paged my resident of course), paged respiratory, but when they didn't come and my resident arrived I gave him the quick rundown of the situation and told him I think we should call a rapid response. At the end of the day it comes down to what the nurses on the floor can handle and our nurses were doing all they could and this woman was still going down. We called the rapid response, and we ended up transferring her to the ICU where she eventually had to be intubated. At the end of all that, my resident and the ICU resident both came up to me later and said "good call." Moments like these are the times it 1) just feels good to hear since in medicine we so rarely get positive feedback, and 2) you actually start developing your own clinical intuition and feeling like you may actually be able to do this after all. The moments like these make the endless pages and order-writing and busy work worth it.

Alright, enough late-night rambling from me. Time to have a snack and feed this growing belly! (Which I also forgot to mention, but thankfully incubating baby does not seem too upset by this new insane schedule mama is working as long as I eat plenty of snacks throughout the night and stay hydrated. Best of all he or she has already started moving around and kicking in there, which is the best feeling - puts a smile on my face every time).


I hope you all have a wonderful 4th of July weekend and enjoyed this post!! xoxo

June 22, 2015

Planning Out Your Life

Happy Monday all! Sorry I've been a little MIA - things have been crazy (although crazy seems to be the new norm) getting ready to start intern year - we just wrapped up orientation last Friday and today is my first day! More like tonight is my first day, since I start on night float! A little terrifying, but then again every first day is!


But new job aside, today I wanted to talk about something that I've been getting emails about nonstop - planning your life. It's all too easy to look at somebody who is now at Point G and assume they've had it all planned out that way since Point A. People look at the graduation photo with N, me and Liv and assume we got there in some linear fashion - wrong! Now don't get me wrong, I've always known I wanted to be a doctor, to be a wife, to be a mother, and more, but I really think people (especially young women) need to be a little easier on themselves when it comes time to getting those "boxes" checked off.

Now the medical school part, that obviously takes a lot of planning. And that is where all of my focus went throughout college (I went to Smith College by the way, have been getting lots of questions about that too lately)! At that time I had a boyfriend (a horribly controlling emotionally abusive coward of a man who I spent seven years with and have never ever mentioned on this blog until now) but was never worried about the marriage and kids part, those would come on their own time. My days were spent carefully planning out my time between a full-time course load, 2-3 jobs, and hanging out with my girlfriends. Thankfully I finally got out of my crappy relationship (after finally escaping off to Europe for a month) just in time for the next milestone - graduating college and starting medical school!

By the time I started medical school I was fresh into a new relationship too (this time with a friend from high school who I reconnected with shortly after college). But the goal at this time was to survive medical school. To get to know a new city and figure out living on my own. Although this time, feeling a little older and little more ready for the next step, I also made plans for the future - I got an apartment instead of living in the dorms, thinking he'd eventually move in, I rearranged my work/study schedule to have my weekends free to spend time with him. I was really thinking about the marriage checkbox this time. But thankfully, 7 years of a horrible relationship taught me a thing or two about what I deserved, and when I realized he wasn't changing I moved on. Many people don't like to admit it, but once you get to know someone, you almost immediately know if they're the right person or not. We tell ourselves "they'd be perfect if they just..." or "once he does xyz then..." And we stay in relationships, for years, waiting for those things. But not me, not anymore.

Not too long after N and I were closer than ever. He was my closest friend during med school, but I never looked at him like that. Once I was actually single and an outside friend commented on how perfect we were for each other, though, something clicked. And because we were friends and had already had long talks about our past and long talks about our future, I knew who he was without the facade of dating. Once we were together we knew we made a powerful team, and for the first time ever there was no "he'd be perfect if..." He was perfect just the way he was. And when he proposed just two months after us getting together, my answer was an easy hell yes. And when we decided we might as well start trying to have kids since it would probably take a couple of years, that was an easy decision too. Of course, we never expected it to happen on the first try. We rotate through infertility clinic and see first-hand the women in their twenties who have been trying for years and can't get pregnant. We thought our story would be like theirs. Was my baby check box on the list? Well, sure. But it was supposed to come after the marriage check box which was supposed to come after the finish med school checkbox. Did I let that phase me? No! Although it was a blessing I wasn't quite sure I was ready for, it was still the greatest blessing! And now fast forward two years and we're ready for the second little blessing!

I write all this, not just to share what's probably way too much personal information, but to illustrate all the little twists and turns that life throws at us! Although you can look at someone who is now in a place where you want to be, don't assume they got there by following their plans exactly! The point is really this - it's wise to plan for the future - to set goals for yourself and have an idea of where you want to be in 5, 10, 15 years. But learn to go with the flow, to open up to something that wasn't on the list (or not in that order on the list) and you'll find yourself a much happier person. And never ever look at one picture and think it was planned like that from day 1 ;)
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